Good bye, my friend.

This afternoon, a good friend passed away after a 2 month battle with illness..
Death does not discriminate.. I might have heard this from somewhere.. but it really is true..
We have all been praying for a miracle and it seemed for a while that there would really be a happy ending but alas it's not meant to be..

Man does not know what God plans for us and this is one BIG example that I truly cannot comprehend.. I don't see a silver lining at this point in time.. I know I should probably keep my head from pondering too much.. but it really hurts me and pains me and saddens me.. that for this dear brother, he had been praying for so long to get a new kidney and now that he has it.. he is gone.. not only that.. he had resisted for so long, not to get into a relationship because he knows that his life is shorten because of his health condition and he did not want to burden his future partner.. and the irony is that he did meet someone and married the girl of his dreams and now his fears has come to pass..

What is the meaning of all these??

I certainly cannot comprehend and feel disappointed that such a thing has happened to someone that I know.. was our faith too small for Him to perform a miracle? did He ran out of miracles? where is the justice or fairness or some sort of balance in this crazy thing called life!!

He has been such a fighter, fighting the last 2 months to stay alive..

Some of us managed to visit him last night and I can say that our dear brother was looking fine and in the smallest corner of my heart, there was hope that maybe, really maybe.. God will grant a miracle..

Why God.. what is the answer to this? Old people die, I don't mind.. but someone in their prime, at the cusp of life.. someone who is a son to parents who are still living, a husband for less than a year, an impact maker to so many of us.. why isn't he given a second chance at life?

Death really does not discriminate.. Is it really an Angel of Death? How can such a miserable thing be from God? Yes.. I know.. it was due to Man eating that blasted fruit that we became mere mortals..

Lord, forgive me for expressing myself but there is just so much frustration and this is certainly the final push.. what sort of world do we live in that innocent people become casualties..

I'm glad to have met this brother who has always been Christ like and I will try to use this as an inspiration to be like our Lord.. to be ironically, non discriminating to others.. He was always helpful, caring and accepted other's views and belief while trying to help them see the Truth..

He might have his own set of view points when it came to theology but in the end, his passion for Christ was incomparable and his actions reflecting Christ shows that all he did was pure and never for selfish reasons..

When I first came to Perth, I can still remember that even though he lived in Joondalup, he would drop me home in Bentley after church activities even if that meant an extra 30 mins drive or wasted fuel, like some people who are so conscious about saving the blasted petrol.. and all this when he was still studying and had only a part time job..

He would always have time to sit down and chat and counsel people, that was his calling, his ministry..

I recall that one of his fav songs that he sings at Karaoke is Better Man by Robbie Williams.. and I would like to dedicate the song in memory of this dear brother who is now at a better place, no longer suffering..

Til we meet again, brother.. then we can have that game of golf which I promised you yesterday.. watch over us and see lil' Sophie grow up..

Better Man

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man

1st year anniversary..

To my One and Only LP.. Happy 1 year Anniversary!!

Even though we sort of talked about not wanting anything pressies, I felt that I should get something for you, just because it's YOU lar.. had to lar.. and you don't need to feel obligated or bad that you didn't get me anything.. I have already spend so much.. =)

Thank God there was a florist right next to you and a bit of Google-ing and Voila!! I can be impulsive when it comes to gifts and all.. but I think that's when the creative juices flow better.. =P

The card says "Happy One Year Anniversary, All my love, Paul".. Yar.. a bit da formal.. coz I was telling the florist to write over the phone.. a bit da shy, me thinks.. ;)

I hope you like the tulips - a definite hit, esp. when it's winter.. really beautiful.. and smells quite nice i think.. one thing for sure.. it could either make my life difficult or easy as you don't have a particular favorite flower..

Of course, how could I forget to get some chocs.. =) bought some cake too but got cream.. too bad you can't have them.. will get u more delicious cakes when you are no longer pregnant..

I'm typing away.. listening to my newly installed hi-fi set.. it's 3 to 5.. *yawn* but it's worth it.. it's been a long while since i have blogged and i have been meaning to write something special for our first anniversary..

I won't be able to write everything that you have done for me and why I am so in LOVE with you but I will try to list down some stuff that I am appreciative for..

- you are the one that i see last at night and the first person that i see when i wake up =)
- you have been cooking for me for a year and i'm still alive.. i'm very grateful that you take the time to plan what we eat and it's never ever boring though sometimes the asian in me feels disappointed with the ang moh style kinda food.. but wat the heck.. fusion is good!!
- thank you for doing the laundry and fussing me and sean and now just me but i think i get it now.. that we need to change socks daily..
- this is going back to when i used to work in audit.. thank u for picking me up from work when i am OT-ing.. and getting hot food ready for me when i get home.. thank you for pitying me for working so hard.. thank you for being the reason or scapegoat so that i can find work elsewhere..
- thank you for allowing penguin to stay in the hse even though you would have wished that we could be alone in the hse.. well then you would need to get rid of your mei mei too..
- thank you for having patience in most things..
- thank you for being so generous.. that you are learning that joint account is the way to go.. instead of having separate accounts and separate lives.. =P
- thank you for carrying baby..
- thank you for not making too much noise abt what recent acquisitive mood..
- thank you for loving me so much even though you aren't sure what it is that makes you love me so much..

Alright, this isn't the most super duper posting ever but its 17 past 5.. and my fingernails are bugging me..

I love you and I can't wait for baby to enter into this world and share in our daily lives..

yours always and forever..

LG

Happy Valentine's as a married couple..

Short post.

Yay!

We went to see our obstetrician, Linda Wong at Subi for the first visit..

Finally get to see Baby for the first time.. and he/she is about 9 weeks 4 days old as per the ultrasound.. but will get a more accurate scan in abt 3 weeks time.. hopefully we will be able to get a video/dvd of it.. so that we can post it somewhere.. shld be either on our youtube site or on our new baby blog

Ok lar.. time for zZzZz...

Happy Valentine's to everyone out there!!

My choice..

This entry below in blue is not mine.. have extracted from http://nianz.blogspot.com/2006/10/love-chance-or-choice.html

Found her blog in a not so nice way.. was reading the Star online and Ning was on the headlines.. passed away in a road accident.. bus lost control on the highway.. bus driver's fault..

It's really sad and main point to reflect on is that life is just so fragile.. one should always remember that and should learn to express their love and thanksgiving to their loved ones..

So yeah.. did some google search and found her blogs and this entry i would like to share.. the first half of it.. I have read it from many fwded emails.. but I think the 2nd half are her original thots, maybe..

I have added my own in black.

Love, Chance or Choice

When we meet the right person to love when we're at the right place at the right time, That's chance.

When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance.

Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?

That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.

When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, That's choice.

Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, That's choice.

Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance.

But true love that lasts is truly a choice.

A choice that we make.


Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: " Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen."

I do believe that soul mates do exist.

That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not.

We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mates is still a choice we have to make.

We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love...

BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly.

Today is my 27th year in this world..

I have much to be thankful about.. without the grace and mercy of God, I do not think I would have been able to live til this day.

There has been occasions which I have flirted with death but through the love, blessings and promises that He has for me.. I am still here..

Due to the uncountable amount of prayer from my family and friends.. my life has been blessed beyond measure.. I don't think I would ever know how much difference it would be if not for all these blessings.. how my life would just be ordinary..

Reading my past entries that I have recorded for the last couple of years.. I think I have come a long way.. I'm still the same person.. just a couple of years older, hopefully wiser.. =)

I definitely have seen much more now.. since joining the workforce.. being able to experience first hand.. the many facets of the human characteristics.. good and bad..


-to be continued-