Good bye, my friend.

This afternoon, a good friend passed away after a 2 month battle with illness..
Death does not discriminate.. I might have heard this from somewhere.. but it really is true..
We have all been praying for a miracle and it seemed for a while that there would really be a happy ending but alas it's not meant to be..

Man does not know what God plans for us and this is one BIG example that I truly cannot comprehend.. I don't see a silver lining at this point in time.. I know I should probably keep my head from pondering too much.. but it really hurts me and pains me and saddens me.. that for this dear brother, he had been praying for so long to get a new kidney and now that he has it.. he is gone.. not only that.. he had resisted for so long, not to get into a relationship because he knows that his life is shorten because of his health condition and he did not want to burden his future partner.. and the irony is that he did meet someone and married the girl of his dreams and now his fears has come to pass..

What is the meaning of all these??

I certainly cannot comprehend and feel disappointed that such a thing has happened to someone that I know.. was our faith too small for Him to perform a miracle? did He ran out of miracles? where is the justice or fairness or some sort of balance in this crazy thing called life!!

He has been such a fighter, fighting the last 2 months to stay alive..

Some of us managed to visit him last night and I can say that our dear brother was looking fine and in the smallest corner of my heart, there was hope that maybe, really maybe.. God will grant a miracle..

Why God.. what is the answer to this? Old people die, I don't mind.. but someone in their prime, at the cusp of life.. someone who is a son to parents who are still living, a husband for less than a year, an impact maker to so many of us.. why isn't he given a second chance at life?

Death really does not discriminate.. Is it really an Angel of Death? How can such a miserable thing be from God? Yes.. I know.. it was due to Man eating that blasted fruit that we became mere mortals..

Lord, forgive me for expressing myself but there is just so much frustration and this is certainly the final push.. what sort of world do we live in that innocent people become casualties..

I'm glad to have met this brother who has always been Christ like and I will try to use this as an inspiration to be like our Lord.. to be ironically, non discriminating to others.. He was always helpful, caring and accepted other's views and belief while trying to help them see the Truth..

He might have his own set of view points when it came to theology but in the end, his passion for Christ was incomparable and his actions reflecting Christ shows that all he did was pure and never for selfish reasons..

When I first came to Perth, I can still remember that even though he lived in Joondalup, he would drop me home in Bentley after church activities even if that meant an extra 30 mins drive or wasted fuel, like some people who are so conscious about saving the blasted petrol.. and all this when he was still studying and had only a part time job..

He would always have time to sit down and chat and counsel people, that was his calling, his ministry..

I recall that one of his fav songs that he sings at Karaoke is Better Man by Robbie Williams.. and I would like to dedicate the song in memory of this dear brother who is now at a better place, no longer suffering..

Til we meet again, brother.. then we can have that game of golf which I promised you yesterday.. watch over us and see lil' Sophie grow up..

Better Man

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man